Feeling Extreme Anxiety Repeating

 

 

All it took was a mention on the radio of a play featuring a 100-year-old woman. My gut clenched, my breath quickened, and in flooded the thoughts of death. Of course I am writing about this now because the feeling just keeps coming back, and it has brought friends.

 

Feeling 1 – You are going to die.

Feeling 2-  You ARE going to die.

Feeling 3- You’re a failure.

Feeling 4 – you are old, you are a failure, you are going to die.

Feeling 5 – silence. Just creepy physical waves of fear.

I’ll be recycling these five for a while. Talk amongst yourselves.